You may not know this, but this book was not intended to be the book I wrote during this time-at least it wasn’t my intention, God had other plans. I was planning for a book on how to make figures out of pipe-cleaners to be my first book, and it seemed the most lucrative option. I stopped bringing in regular income in September, so it made sense to go with the most lucrative option right? Yet God had other plans! Even as I worked on the other book, I could tell that it wasn’t what he wanted me to work on so I paused the more lucrative book and began working on the one that was most likely to be a blessing to others.
That said it is hard on some days. Today in particular, I was focused on all the ways that I might return to a place of financial stability, so I knew that I had to pause and focus on God. I got out a sheet of paper and listed all of the times that God had provided for me. Many occurred while I was a college student and included stints of near homelessness, miracles regarding tuition, and food when I couldn’t afford it! I could feel the joy of God stirring in me and I asked him what he wanted me to do, with no reservations. He said “Go to the store” and pick up the materials I needed for a side project. I did and was amazed to discover that the most expensive component was on sale for 50% off at that exact moment!
Over the last several months, I’ve lived pretty close to the bone reduced at times to eating seasoned rice. It took me half a year to eat 40% of my bag of rice. During this time I ate the other 60 percent in two months. Things have been hard which has made me lean heavily on God. Yet if I know anything its that opportunities are not our salvation-God is. He uses opportunities, but looking at those and becoming filled with fear does nothing for us. Working hard and staying focused are keen, but faith in Jesus is the most essential ingredient!
Adventures and Reflections 