You may imagine that the hardest part of the book is the writing. Grinding daily to hit the word count. You would be wrong. You may then assume that it is the editing. After all peer review must require some measure of humility. It must be hard to let others review and critique your work right? It is, but it is not quite the hardest part. The hardest part is realizing that you are about to cross a Rubicon.
For example, today as I invited people to the event, I was overwhelmed by the number of people I have encountered in my life time. Many of these people knew me at different stages of life. Some of them greatly wronged me. I greatly wronged some of them. Yet all and everyone will have an opportunity to read my book and to challenge my ideas. That is pretty nerve racking. Fears try to rise, fears of controversy. It becomes tempting to go back to my room and lie down, perhaps for many days. And that is how it feels on a good day. It becomes difficult not to frantically check Facebook or YouTube for any possible diversion.
This is why living in prayer is so crucial. Without prayer who can stand? There may be someone, somewhere, but that person is not me. I have no illusions about who I am without God constantly pouring into me.
By faith I know that if only two people buy and benefit from this work, I will have beaten time. The lessons in this book took 3.5 years. In a few hours the reader will inherit at least that much time. If those two make an impact in their workplaces, in a sense I will have 3 times as much reach and impact as before. I work by faith trusting that this time has not been wasted. I look forward refusing to be slowed, stopped or defeated.
Praise the Lord.
Adventures and Reflections 